What do you do when you are feeling defeated? When it seems that the weight of the world is wearing you down? Do you allow yourself to sink into the mire of self doubt and loathing? Or are you the type of person to push it aside with the anthem of "FORWARD"?
There are times in every one's life that there is struggle. We wouldn't be alive if we didn't have to struggle for something. But when is the struggle just too much to go through. When is too much, just too much? Should everything be a struggle? Sometimes the fight is no longer in the fighter.
Am I deluding myself about being a writer? I havent' written in a long time. What is holding me back? I don't enjoy my job anymore. It might be connected to my ego. I went from a place where my opinion was sought out to a place where they feel that I am not needed. At my last position, my "name" meant something. It means nothing anymore. I have gone from the front line to the "B" team. What has changed? In my eyes nothing but again maybe I'm deluding myself. Is this trip that I am going on next week going to help me or perpetuated my constant stress? Then there are even bigger fights in my personal life that I don't know if I have the will to fight anymore. Are some things not meant to be?